I hate to do this, but I have to write this down. Since the only thing I can write with is my keyboard, here I am, back to this place. There is a funny thing that stuck into my head several minutes ago. You know this silly game they play when learning adjectives in English: you have to come with one that starts with the same letter as your name does. Mine starts with "v". As long as I can remember, it has always been "vivacious". Yep, very positive and intelligent. Today, however, I simply cannot think of anything but "vulnerable". And, I must admit, having the same first letter with the word "vulnerable" sucks. Moreover, it sucks a lot.

I know this is rather selfish and more than just stupid, but the only thing I can think about these days is how you will meet me at the airport. I keep picturing this scene, just like in those stupid girlish movies, where music plays and everyone moves in a slow motion for a while, and then there is nothing but these two main characters looking at each other, so that everyone knows that here is the moment for a happy ending. I haven't seen you for a while and now it feels just like I am .. incomplete. Like I have lost a very precious and the very best piece of mine. As if I was shining so bright and now I am simply back to being dark and twisty again. I wish I could sit right beside you and say nothing. This is the only thing I can think about now.